Shaun’s not a “best friend” of mine by any means. You might not even say “close friend.” Realistically, he probably falls more in the
“acquaintance” category to most people. We
don’t stay in regular contact. Before
this weekend it had been about six years since I last saw him. And not only have we spent much of that time
in different states, but for about half of it we were even on different
continents. Nonetheless, I consider
Shaun a dear friend. Because despite the
time and distance, Shaun is someone who has taught me more important life
lessons than some friends I see on a regular basis.
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The first vocation I took on was that of missioner, received in my
baptism. For as the United States Council
of Catholic Bishops tell us, “One reality
we encounter through the sacrament is Christ’s presence in the Church
community, his Body. This recognition of
Christ’s presence in the community should lead to a stronger awareness of being
sent on mission to engage in love-inspired action in the world.” Being given new life in that baptismal water
gave me a global vocation before I even knew what water or the globe was.

* * * * *
Today is my first day back at work after maternity leave. And I am a mix of emotions – grateful for the
time I had to stay home, and disappointed to not have had more of it; excited
to see certain people again, while saddened to have to leave my baby; relieved
to be using my brain again, and anxious about whether or not I’m using it in
the right place. These last nine weeks
have had me question if I would, could, should, give up this ministry outside
the home to focus just on the ministry of my family. Some days I couldn’t wait to be back to work,
while others I just wanted to be with and learn from my little ones
constantly. Today is a combination of
both. Though it feels good to be back,
it is not easy being away from the life I have spent the most time with these
last two months. Though it feels good to be a part of such a unique and
important ministry, I miss those unique and important pieces of my life I leave
behind for 8 hours a day. Already today
I have found myself crying, and rejoicing – sometimes at the same time. And through them both, the questions continue
to stir. What is my place? Where is Christ calling me to be and what am
I called to focus on?
This morning, as I shared a video from Shaun’s ordination as one of my first tasks at work, I was reminded of his newest lesson for me. He reminded me that I am a missioner. That vocation
has not gone away, and I am blessed to be able to live it out in such a
concrete way through this ministry. In
addition, I am a Lay Ecclessial Minister; I like to work in and for and with
the Church, and am blessed to have been called to do so. And though I am also incredibly blessed to be
a mother, perhaps one of my most joyous (as well as challenging) callings, that
vocation does not do away with those that came before it. I must still be a missioner, still be a
minister, still be here.
So though I know not what the future will hold or where God will beckon me in times to come, and
though I certainly don’t know how I will handle the juggle of both my work and
my family vocations, for right now I find comfort in the answer Shaun offers to
my stirring questions. I continue to be called to this work, and therefore God will continue to guide me and sustain me in it. And
God will also help and provide
for the combination of all my
vocations – even on the not-so-easy days away from motherhood – because S/He
has called me to each of them.
I should have known that my free spirited and generous friend would offer me such a gift. Thank you Shaun for this latest lesson that makes me grateful for all the callings I have received, and more confident in the challenges of living out more than one at once. Thank you for the reminder that has helped make this day of transition a bit easier. No matter the time or distance, I am blessed to have Shaun as my friend and teacher!
May we all learn from the Shauns in our life, and may we all have the courage and craziness to live out those
lessons, whatever it takes sometimes.
PS. Shaun, I noticed that you recently cut your hair…I have just added “make
hair appointment” to my to-do list – thanks again! :)
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